Okay, it's becoming more and more like an alternate way things could have turned out, but isn't quite an AU.

Warnings: Evil Yami! (Awww, and I like him too!)

 

 

He still wouldn't talk to me.

It was so *frustrating*! I didn't understand why...and no-one else could tell me either. Téa and Tristen had tried asking him about it, but he soon refused to talk to them as well.

I couldn't believe it...I thought he was my best friend. But if he had been, wouldn't he have been more understanding of how I feel about Ryou?

Oh, Ryou also received an invitation to the Duelist Kingdom! That meant he could go with me, for which I was extremely grateful. Téa and Tristen said they would come too...I'm not sure how, but I think they mentioned something about a plan to sneak on board the boat. I would have been happy...except that I wouldn't be able to forget that we were leaving Joey behind. Even though he hadn't been very nice recently, deep down he was still my best friend; and I knew that one day he would understand and come through for me. We were scheduled to leave in a week.

 

...Soon after that, Yami surfaced again. He had been doing it more and more often since me and Ryou got together, and without provocation.

...He's made it quite clear that he doesn't approve of me and Ryou; and I still flinch at some of the things that he's said to Ryou when he's been in control of my body. It's strange, really....when Yami's in control, I mean. It's like I'm inside his head; trapped in a box with no way out. I can see and hear everything he does, but I just can't influence him in any way. Thankfully Ryou learned to tell when it's Yami and not me a long time ago, so he tries his best to ignore what Yami says.

...But a few nights before the boat was going to leave, Yami let something slip - he wanted Joey. I couldn't believe it...surely me and Yami were like two halves of the same person, and yet I didn't like Joey in that way at all! Just like Yami didn't like Ryou in that way either, I guess...

Yami never used to be like that. He used to help me out - he was like my more confident, courageous alter-ego. Not anymore though...I think he's sick of always being my shadow - he wants a life of his own. Unfortunately though, he's strong enough to take mine and doesn't seem to care anymore that I don't like what he's doing.

What I hate most though is the way he treats Ryou. It pains me everytime he insults him, or tells him how much I don't love him, or that he's worthless...I can see in Ryou's eyes that it hurts him too, even though he tries to tell himself that it's not me.

 

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Yami's in control now...I don't know what to do. He's going to see Joey, and I know what he has in mind....

He's going to take what he wants - just like he always does. I wish I was in control of my body so I could cry and sob...I feel so awful! Before he left, Ryou tried to talk some sense into him...I love him for trying, but he shouldn't have. Yami hit him. And there was nothing I could do about it.

So why don't I take off the Millennium Puzzle? I can't.

Every time I try, Yami takes control - so I've found that it's more worthwhile just to let it be...at least that way I get more time as myself, and more time with Ryou and my friends.

I dread to think how Joey's going to react when Yami reaches his house...what will Joey think of me?! I'm not sure if Joey can tell the difference between me and Yami - from what I understand we only look very slightly  different...

Oh God...Yami's reached Joey's house...we're going in. I'm scared of what Yami might do to Joey - he's become gradually more unpredictable, and is also quicker to become angry. However, Joey is still bigger than Yami, so he might be able to hold his own if things get violent. But...somehow I don't think that violence is quite what Yami has in mind.

 

To be continued...

 

 

Is anyone else as confused as I am?! Yami wasn't going to be evil...*sniff* he just came out that way! ^_^" how will it end? you'll have to wait and see....and so will I, because I haven't thought of it yet! ¬_¬